Sunday, March 17, 2013

No bra, no makeup and crazy, untamed hair!

Did I seriously just make a feast of a breakfast at 3am? Yup! This was a typical morning for me back home. I had very poor sleeping habits and would be insanely hungry at 3 in the morning.

I have to blame this morning of mine on stress. My poor Frehley, my handsome toy poodle, had his eyes removed yesterday. He has been blind for years and began developing issues with his eyes which resulted in him having constant migraines. Recently my family took him to the vet and they decided it was best to remove his eyes to get him out of his misery.

Yesterday afternoon I was sent a picture of Frehley post surgery and I couldn't help but cry. I can't help but cry right now thinking about him. I know this is the best thing for him but still I feel bad. We can't explain to him what happened but I know he is a strong little guy and this will help him live the rest of his life without pain.

Now enough with the sadness and let's move on to good stuff.

My diet here in Anaheim has consisted of Red Baron pizza, frozen waffles and fast food yet I have lost 14 pounds in the 62 days I have been here. I absolutely have to thank my job. Being a Custodial Guest Services Cast Member I am constantly moving. I walk all day and when I'm doing trash I am constantly lifting. I'm developing muscles in my arms along with an amazingly awesome watch tan that will blow your mind. 

I enjoy my job but I am starting to feel the effects of working full-time and being so physical. Even when I'm not working I am constantly doing something. There has really been no time to stop and rest but I did have the opportunity the other day to be a complete lazy bum and it was amazing. No bra, no makeup and crazy, untamed hair all day. It was AMAZING!!!! I slept, watched a movie, slept more and then watched a movie. It was just the day I needed to get me back on track.

Even on day 62 I am still meeting new people in the program and I'm even meeting people outside of the program. It's great knowing so many people. I seriously can't go a day without seeing a bunch of people I know. I feel like my Dad. I grew up with a Father who knew everyone no matter where we went. He made friends easily and I couldn't help but look up to that. As a child I was shy and had the worst social skills. It's crazy to be here today living on my own, being so far away from what was normal and having so many friends. It's crazy to think about how much I have experienced and grown so far. I've still got 5 months here and I'm ready to see where I end up.

Thursday, February 14, 2013


"Look at this as a blessing in disguise" -Ashland

Change happens all the time. There is change in our lives every single day and we must accept it in order to move forward. Change has happened in my life recently. Being away from my family and friends during this change was difficult but during the process of this change I made new friends.

I have been debating how exactly I'm going to address this change to the interwebs. As most of you know I'm a social media butterfly and constantly share my life to the internet world. I have this blog, I have a YouTube channel and always update my personal FaceBook page. After a long time of going back and forth in my mind I decided to write a blog.

Since the beginning of the Disney College Program I instilled a lot of trust in a lot of people. Even thought I had just met people I put my trust in them. That was a big mistake. 

I'm not going to get into specifics but basically the people I called my friends betrayed me. I have never felt so betrayed in my entire life. The pain of that betrayal is indescribable. My heart literally hurt and my usually non-crying self was uncontrollably crying through the quiet apartment halls at 3:30AM. This was not a normal cry this was a I can't breathe because I am so upset cry. 
I was grasping for air while tears streamed down my face as I raced up to my friend's apartment. He stayed up with me for 2 hours as I ugly cried and explained everything that happened. He comforted me and gladly let me sleep on his couch.

A couple days after the incident I ended up going to the programs office and that's when I met Ashland. Ashland works in the DCP programs office in the apartment building. She's an intern and has done the program before. We talked and she told me, "Look at this [situation] as a blessing in disguise." That really opened my eyes and made me think differently about the whole situation. 

The week following the incident didn't get any better. There was a moment during that week that I decided I wanted to go home and leave the program but my friends wouldn't let me. These group of friends stuck by my side during this whole fiasco and were there for me every step of the way. They sat with me the night I wanted to leave DCP and convinced me that this is where I need to be.  I love them for that and I'm glad I'm still here.

After much couch hopping I eventually decided to change apartments. I am now in a new apartment with 4 wonderful ladies. Since the moment they found out I was going to be their new roommate they were so very welcoming and sweet. I feel so much love here and there is a great feeling in the air every time I walk in.

It's crazy how quickly things have changed. I have dealt with a lot so far in the Disney College Program but it has made me stronger and opened my eyes to a lot of things. The fiasco was truly a blessing in disguise. It may sound crazy but I am glad all of this has happened because I now know who my true friends are. I met Ashland who is there for me and has my best interest in mind. I also have learned a lot of life lessons. 

Now it is time to move on with my life and enjoy every moment of this internship. 

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Day 10 in the Disney College Program!

Today marks my 10th day in the program. I have seriously never huged so many people in my entire life. I hug people who are in the program all day every day. Even people I had just met on check-in. We hug here at the Disney College Program and I love it.

This program has already been a roller coaster of emotions but I'm loving every single minute of it. The first 7 days I couldn't eat due to nerves, tears, fear, stress, excitement, joy, disbelief, love, magic, and friendships. Starting day 8 my body was ready to begin eating normally again and I have been eating like crazy ever since. :) 

I'm not a crier but on night 3 of the program I was absolutely hysterical in my apartment. Due to events I wasn't having a good night at all and I was uncontrollably crying which is very odd for me. The thing that most surprised me was during my break down I didn't want to leave the program. The thought of leaving never crossed my mind. I was missing my sister a lot and wished she was by my side supporting me during my rough night but I never contemplated going home. That is the one thing that baffles me. I don't want to go home. It's not like I don't miss my family and friends but I love being here. I feel like this is where I need to be and I am going to take in every second of this program while I'm here and make this one of the best experiences of my life.

I just have to say I freaking love my roommates!!!!!! I love every single one of them and I couldn't have been placed with a better group of girls. The picture at the beginning of this post is of all my roomies and I together enjoying a delicious pancake breakfast courtesy of Sarah. From left to right: Linnea from Massachusetts, Sarah from Texas, Me, Mae from Chicago, and Colleen from New Orleans. I am living with such a great mix of girls and I love everything about them. They are all extremely supportive and my own therapists who listen to my issues and give advice.

It feels like I have been here at least a month. I can't wait to see what my future holds. My first official day of training begins today. Below are pictures of my adventure so far and a link to my first YouTube video in the program. Enjoy!

Friday, October 12, 2012

93 DAYS!!!

It's crazy how much more I enjoy life since I was accepted into the Disney College Program. Everything is better. Even things that bothered me before are enjoyable. Going to school, traffic, doing homework, chores, cleaning my room are all things that are nice now. I guess in the back of my mind I know DCP is in my near future. I'm excited for what's to come and know this is going to be a wonderful experience.

I've made many friends thanks to the Disney College Program. There is a Facebook group for Disney College Program hopefuls. It's a great tool to get to know one another, ask questions, and support one another during the DCP process. I know when I go down to Anaheim that I will have many friends which is nice to know.
This is the first time I am leaving home. I will miss my family, dogs, and friends a lot. I'm going to miss cuddling with little Blackie, home cooked meals, watching movies and shows with Lynnie Benz. There are going to be a lot of things I will miss but I know I'll be around a great group of people in Anaheim.

I made really good friends with Linnea Rose. She's from the Boston area. When she joined the Facebook group we immediately had a connection. I joke around and call her my twin because we have so many things in common. When I was accepted into the program she was still waiting. Days and days went by and she heard nothing. I was sad because I wanted her to be in the program with me. I was starting to get worried that she may not get in. This past Tuesday I came home from school and looked at the DCP Facebook group and there was a wave of acceptances. I grabbed my phone and texted Linnea, "CHECK YOUR EMAIL!!!!" After 4 long minutes of waiting for a text she responded, "I GOT IN!!!!!!!!!!!!" I was ecstatic. I was happier for her than I was for myself when I found out. We will be requesting to be roommates in the Anaheim apartments. Hopefully it all works out.

Currently I'm figuring out what I will need down in Anaheim. I've been writing lists and doing a little shopping. It's exciting planning everything and buying things because I never get to do this. I'm always broke but thankfully right before I was accepted I received my loan. There were no issues for once. Everything is falling right into place. I'm happy.


Saturday, September 29, 2012

Disney freak with no sleep!

Last night was the first time I had a good night of sleep since I found out I was accepted into the Disney College Program. Heck it was the first time I've had a good night of sleep in the last 6 months. As some of you know I have trouble sleeping. Sleeping last night from 10pm-6am was a miracle. I feel refreshed and was able to complete 2 quizzes and 2 tests for my online economics class. After being accepted into DCP I was way too hyped up on thoughts and ideas. I couldn't calm down when it was time for bed. I had too much Disney on the brain. 

This past Wednesday I was accepted into the Disney College Program for Spring 2013. I'll be on my Disneyland adventure from January 13, 2012 to August 17, 2012. I have created this blog to fill my friends and family in on what is going on with me. I will continue making YouTube videos along my way but feel this blog will give a detailed look at my adventure and allow me to show pictures!

 "As a Disney College Program participant, you'll become part of the magic that is known worldwide. You'll get valuable, on-the-job experience in our parks and resorts, and expand your knowledge in a classroom with international students. Discover new worlds and create long-lasting memories. Because here, a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity will change your life forever."-Disney College Program

I have uploaded a YouTube video about my reaction to my acceptance. It goes into detail of my excitement, how I found out, and my role. I'm very excited to start working at the happiest place on earth and I can't wait to fill this blog with many stories and photos. Thank you for taking the time to read this!